29/01/23 - Firsts, integration and abducted shoes:
Hii!! Welcome to my first blog post. This website is essentially going to be an outlet for me to ramble without having to worry about the social consequences of doing so. So to me, you're not really a person, but a trashcan that I'm throwing my ideas into. I just googled it and apparently trash can is actually two words, my bad. Since I'm also more STEM oriented, I don't typically write often, hence my spelling error only a few sentences in. In order to prevent my already inarticulate self from fully losing communication capabilities, I'm using this to just kind of practise organising my jumbled thoughts... but I also don't want to think too much about what I'm saying - it's still a rambling outlet, yknow?
On the topic of firsts, ughhhh... I need to get out of my own head and stop worrying about the structure of this thing. I went on my first date a week ago, my first ever first date. It went well but how do you get over the fear that you're making someone uncomfortable while trying to flirt? Well that's the thing, I'm not even flirting, at least then I could read his response, but I'm not doing anything... just slamming on the breaks before even turning the key (yes, you just witnessed a DEH reference). Anyway, Valentine's day is upcoming and I'm lost for what to do. Typical. Romance is cringe. Well, it's not but I don't have a better transition and I want to stop talking about a random guy on the internet.
What did I do today? Integration by parts during a musical rehearsal. OH SHIT I STILL NEED TO GO BUY TICKETS FOR MY FRIEND'S DANCE SHOW NEXT WEEKEND BRB - ok im back with chocolate coated biscuits after watching a whole episode of the good doctor, oopsie :). Moving on, oh I edited the website homepage too, I still can't decide on a colour palette though. I guess it'll keep changing until I'm happy with it. OH wanna hear a funny story? Yesterday, I was rollerskating in the park and I left my walking shoes in a bag by a lamppost near me. Yeah they got stolen lmfao. WHO STEALS SHOES FROM A TEENAGE GIRL???? They're so old and hence have no monetary value. I'm still trying to figure out if it was done to spite me as a skater, or if the person was just desperately broke. I'm not sure, is there always a reason behind being a mean person? But seriously - how did I not see? I guess the fact that I was afraid to make eye contact with people passing by me might have helped with the robbery.
Also my best friend is randomly in Romania right now, so that's cool, here's a photo he sent me: nevermind i can't get the code to work lol 
Well anyways I'm done with this post. I'll continually update the site throughout the week and post something next weekend. Bye :)